Sometimes my brain highjacks my body!

Recently, for some reason or other, my brain has become dissatisfied with the cellophane bags I put my knitted bunnies in when I ship them. They work fine since the bunnies usually travel in a postal bag.

BUT...their ears always get flattened.

See!

So I started looking at the lovely way other handmade soft doll makers shipped their toys and the idea slotted into my mad cataloging brain...

It said,YES! WE MUST HAVE IT!!

Pointing out that it was already 10pm, that there were dollies I was already knitting waiting had absolutely no effect. The hamster in my brain kept running madly in his wheel, loudly percolating ideas...

I WANT PRESENTATION BOXES FOR MY BUNNIES!

Yeah, great but we don't have any money. And even if we did we'd have to order them and that'd take time and...

WE HAVE CARDSTOCK. I BET WE COULD FIND A BOX TEMPLATE SOMEWHERE!

Yeah, probably, but...

HERE! ORIGAMI RECTANGULAR BOX WITH LID. EASY! COME ON! GET THE STUFF!

But the card's not big enough for the boxes we need to make!

...STICKY TAPE THEM TOGETHER! THEN THEY'LL BE BIG ENOUGH!

Not too professional looking but, hey! What do I know?...

MUST GET IT DONE! HAVE TO HAVE BOXES!!

And now I have boxes. 

Which are sweet but not nearly as nice or sturdy as I'd like but they're good for making them easy to find when people buy them. 

So I guess the crazy side of my brain wasn't far wrong. Even the little pics on the end of the boxes was a good idea!

I hope, sometime in the future that I sell enough of my bunnies and toys to purchase professional lidded boxes that could actually withstand the postal service because these wouldn't last a minute! But I guess I can fit them in mailing boxes now without them sloshing around.

And the Obsessive Ideas part of my brain is appeased and I can have my brain and body back and the hamster has curled up in his little house to sleep until the next obsessive idea come along and he jumps back up and gets back in his wheel. 

Ah well, life in my brain is never dull!

God bless you all!

Dx

Why I knit.

I LOVE watching the Sea! All that focused turmoil!

I began to knit often because it calms my anxiety, which needs nothing to activate. It can just sit there, in a state of constant percolation, but when I’m knitting and following a pattern I can zone out the sound of the constant anxiety and just enjoy what I’m doing. There are very few other things that allow me to do that.

I can keep my hands busy instead of fidgeting about or getting bored. I can remember as a child, when being chided about reading at the table when having a meal that I’d try and explain that my brain was bored. My mind would wonder about like a balloon, with nothing to fix on while my hands got on with the mundane business of eating. My hands being occupied wasn’t enough. I needed something to engage my brain as well. Knitting answers both of those needs. While the motion is mechanical there are things to think about. What stage am I up to in the pattern? What will the next stage require? How does it look? Do I need to change anything? 

My brain is never quiet. There is a CONSTANT monologue going on in my head. If I don’t fill it with something to occupy itself with it will fill it with something else...which often isn’t healthy. My anxieties will flood in, my worries for my type 1 diabetes, the fact that I don’t work, that my dear Hubbie has to support us both. I worry about my adult children, especially the youngest who has Aspergers Syndrome and struggles daily with issues due to that. If I don’t fill my mind with something that gives me a little joy, eventually the other thoughts fill it instead until I’m so overwhelmed I just want to disappear.

So...I knit. It’s seems pretty benign but it has given me at least a little hope that I can be productive doing something that is positive to me and can give someone else a little tangible moment of joy for themselves. 

And for that, I am grateful!

Dx